~ we are chiwasu ?!

(source: laughing squid)

this is of course an afterthought after nm4204. how true it is.

how many of us logon to the net, and plug right in into msn, then emails…

his royal highness does…

and the emails never stop coming…

lol!

it eithers means one is very popular, or there’s a pile of work to be done!

arli has yet another great post. a post she created enos back when she was 16? presenting, ‘paper crane’ from a girl’s angle.

Paper Crane

He gave me a paper crane
One night in a blue café

Sat beside me in the theatre
We laughed together

Yet I shunned him
Rebuilding my Iron Gate

Ignored him stab him
Wishing him to go away

Heart yearned for affection
Soul wanted no commitment

Mind idolized perfection
Brain thought it was improper

Feeling tremendous pain
I had fallen for him

For the first time ever
Flawless me was actually

Feeling unworthy and vulnerable
Empty of all true essence

Loving a beautiful stranger
Who’s near yet so far

Having neither desires nor expectations
Without possessiveness or jealousy

I want to love him for just being him
Simple things are so hard indeed

The theme of my poem is about the internal conflicts faced by an individual when falling love. It is something that I have a deep attachment to and really expressed my innermost feelings at that particular period of time. I wanted to capture the intense moment but sometimes emotions are too complex and difficult to comprehend. Hence only through poetry I am able to put into words what was in my heart. I do not expect anyone to really understand the underlying meanings in my poetry. But it will be nice to share with others who might have experienced what I did then.

Paper Cranes are supposed to symbolize friendship and luck. Friendships usually results in intimacy, caring for one another and love. It makes you think when the line between friendship and love intersects and whether platonic relationships between males and females can really exist in the long run. At the same time, love relationships can successfully exist only when there is a bond of friendship between the two partners and not just as lovers or due to society’s obligations such as having a marital status.

Sometimes out of fear of being hurt and ridiculed, people will tend to build a wall around them. For me, I had barricaded my heart with a tall towering Iron Gate. I suppose it is a form of automatic defense mechanism, especially when facing something unknown and unpredictable for the first time. If love is a battlefield, I am merely a soldier defending myself from the attacks of the enemy. The enemy can be cunning and deceiving at times, appearing kind and playing with sweet scented flatteries.

I used four personifications for Heart, Mind, Brain and Soul, giving them human-like qualities and roles to play in my life. All having their own opinions and impact on the decisions I make. These four characters make life’s a rollercoaster and can be extremely irritating at times.

It is hard to describe my first time falling in love. It was totally unintentional, almost magical. Yet at the same time I did not want to because it scares me so. Falling in love meant towards the next stage of maturity in life, but I was not ready. I kept denying what I felt, even going into the extreme of repressing my true feelings.

Nonetheless, I was glad that it happened to me as now I am able to view love and many other things related to it differently. It enabled me to cherish my loved ones even better and love my greatest enemies. If you only love those who love you back, where is the greatness in it? But it is hard as I am an ordinary human being who could easily become judgmental and always holding on to petty grudges.

Love does not necessary be reciprocated or full of fireworks. It has to come straight from the heart, unblemished by unrealistic ideals and expectations. Love comes softly like the ruffling of the leaves by the wind, with no one knowing that a great big storm is approaching. The storm can be murderous and unyielding. But at the end of it there is always a rainbow with its seven wondrous colors reclining magnificently across the horizon. That is how I define love.

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comments anyone?

of course, his royal highness is unfit to give any.

presenting, ouran high school host club

(Source: Random Pic Found From Some Random Anime Wallpaper Site)

interesting art~

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and for his royal highness’ version, we have:

You Cry, I Cry HARDER

You Fight, I Cover Your Back

You Jump Off A Bridge, I Get Ready To Do CPR

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lol

coincidence is when one buzz on adium, scroll around, click on a name. and the next thing ya know, it’s a chat. and that’s makes waking up just at the right time really sweet and lovely.

coincidence is when ya’re on the way home, and ya bump into frieends or friend who will be on the journey home with ya. coupled with brilliant mindshare.

coincidence is when two people have the exact same ideology in life and of course, agrees on the simplest things in life and choses the same food for the same days ahead. definitly funny.

coincidence is when one meets friends not meet for some time and in a franic state in a season of mugging, started talking. lol.

coincidence is when you think of something or someone, something or someone appears in a while, be if physicall, or digitally. coincidence is when ya truly misses that particular aspect, it appears.

bliss, or at least, it seems to be.

coincidence is when you least aspect to learn something, you learn in between two people discussing about that matter and you actually learn from it through unintentional eavedropping. that’s knowledge.

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then again, what is coincidence.

hmmm….

funny, his highness still do, and still will heart it for heart.

(source: swapmeetdave)

he had a dream last night. it’s strange. it’s strange because the dream was strange. it’s strange because it’s strange to have a dream after severe mental and emotional drain.

mental drain because sleeping at 4-5 am per day wans waking at 8am kills. mental drain because doing ethics essay is draining. a final ethics essay worth 50% of the overall grade, sealing the fate with 3000 words. emotional drain because of of the ethics in life. ethics and morality. ouch.

back to the dream.

it’s a strange dream. there were three people in the dream and lots of clothes for ladies…

of course, one of them include his royal highness. one include good friend chocolates. one include elegant goddess. they were all shopping in a store.

good friend was shopping for clothes. for some strange reason, the store they were at weren’t selling the style of clothes she would like and wear. still, everyone has fun. rather, both good friend and his highness had fun. his highness found a piece of clothing that look really strange. he knew chocolates won’t never wear it. he called her over anyway. both of them had fun laughing.

and then, the elegant godness popped out. out of nowhere. to his highness’ joy. well, at least, a curve formed on his mouth in the dream. then again, his highness remembered that in his dream, he was thinking and pondering about something that was very very important. very important at the back of his mind. he couldn’t remembered in his dream, but he very well know what it is now.

hmm…

and then, everyone made fun of the piece of clothing that his highness found. the piece of clothing was really strange. it didn’t look like one. still, it could be wored. well, not by men, lol.

and then, the DAMM phone rang.

and in an attempt to delude (strangely, this happens to ian’s favorable phrase to his highness back in the jc days… “R, stop deluding yourself” he goes ranting…) himself that the world is a beautiful world for most parts, in an attempt to motivate himself for everything due, coupled with other issues, his highness started screaming in adium (a mac alternative for msn) status message that there’s this really pretty girl in his nm3219 class. of course, that includes telling people about it…

and it caught kc’s attention. well… it’s essay week and ‘only an A is permissible’ according to his msn nick… a breather for life and girls struck his undivided attention as highness and kc chat during presentation at nm3219 class…

here’s some funny parts…

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KC: haha
KC: all the pretty girls elsewhere in arts
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.
his royal highness: hmmm~ DAMM PRETTY LAH!
KC: where is your classroom
KC: i’m coming
.

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KC: i’ll be the guest speaker from PS department
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KC: you’re appreciating natural art
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his royal highness: it’s a product of mankind~ HAHA!
KC: mankind is part of nature
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KC: haha
KC: sad sia
KC: the last time my ps classmates and i tried discussing about ‘hot girls in ps’
KC: we ran out of things to talk about after 5 minutes.
his royal highness: wtf…
his royal highness: ran out….
KC: as in no more hot girls that we can think of.
his royal highness: LOL!
his royal highness: so funny
KC: haha more like damn sad

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it was either very funny, or a really sad aspect of life.

still thurs ended on a great note with the meeting of great people and it was 3 down, 2 to go.

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and then, bloody friday bombarment with G, S, L, xy in the morning… =X

with an out of blue, organic cake? erm… dots?

and then at noon hours, it proved the nature’s eyedrops, eyewasher still work. at least for one person.

ethics paper done. 4 down 1 to go.

time to pick up the pieces… lying all around the sand

Shameless stolen, Without permission from gloria!

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Think Heidegger would have been proud? sob sob

(Supposed to be read or sung bearing the tune of the original if you’re happy and u kno it clap your hands, clap clap, if you’re happy and u kno it clap your hands, clap clap, If you’re happy and u know then you’re surely ought to show it, iif you’re happy and u kno it clap your hands
Clap, clap!!)

If you’re tired and u know it clap you’re hands,
Clap, clap
If you’re tired and u know it clap you’re hands,
Clap, clap
If you’re tired and u know then you’re surely ought to show it, if you’re tired scream ‘I hate CNM’
Clap, clap

If you’re doing you’re ethics paper and you’re cursing,
Curse, curse
If you’re doing you’re ethics paper and you’re cursing,
Curse, curse
If you’re doing you’re ethics paper you’re cursing while you’re doing it then are’nt u in an ethical fix??
Curse, curse

Is Baudrillard being cloned?
Cloned, cloned
Is Baudrillard being cloned?
Cloned, cloned
If Baudrillard’s being cloned then we really ought to know that he just screwed us with his ‘final solution’ crap.
Cloned, cloned

Foucault, Gramscii, Habermas and Hegel can go to hell!
Hell, Hell
Foucault, Gramscii, Habermas and Hegel can go to hell!
Hell, Hell
If Foucault, Gramscii, Habermas and Hegel could just do us a favour and go to hell then we can get to learning about them ICTS!!!

We don’t think about methodologies no more!
No, No
We don’t think about methodologies no more!
No, No
We don’t think about methodologies not cos we are partially done, only cos we cant think anymore!
No, No

If this has made you laugh or smile
Grin, Grin
If this has made you laugh or smile
Grin, Grin

If this has made you laugh or if this has made you smile then you’re really ought to scream “I Love ICT”

So if you’re tired and you know it drink Milo
Slurp, Slurp
So if you’re tired and you know it drink Milo
Slurp, Slurp
If you’re buzzing and you know it then its surely more than Milo and you’re sure to scream “I LOVE CNM!!”

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hmm. truly madly deeply ethics~

the ethically delimma of life is what that trulys makes us more confused!